You might as well go ahead and break down and buy some tying gear. it's part of the natural progression of this debilitating disease.
Before you know it tying will take on a life of its own. soon you'll be attempting to add to your list of fish caught on "Your Own" flies. Next you start bugging your hunting friends for bucktails and wood duck feathers. You'll know you're "there" when you start taking home road kill.
If nothing else, it keeps you busy in the winter time.